I would normally say that I’m in a weird place, but I don’t think that’s the case. I think I’m in a different place. Have you ever seen someone go from extrovert to introvert? From getting energy from proximity to a lot of people to being drained by the same group of people?
I now find myself wishing I was somewhere in solitude enjoying my own thoughts – and yes, conversing with myself concerning said thoughts. My insides are different. And I’m learning to be ok with that.
I don’t know if it’s because of recent changes in my personal life, but I’m learning to be ok with who I am. To be as social as I once was, to the adult non-mutant swagged-out turtle that retreats into his shell as much possible had me thinking I was slowly sinking into some sort of depressed state. You better believe I was concerned. The once-outgoing Kenneth looking for places where people would gather and where new things would pop off now makes a bee-line to the gym and then to my fortress of solitude.
I hope you have points in time where you can sit and reflect on who you are as a person and how you’ve changed over the years. Some of you will find that you haven’t changed at all. If that’s you, then you should probably evaluate your life. Circumstance and life happening bring us to our points of change. If you have not experienced this at all, then your circumstances have changed minimally, or you’re around the exact same people (who are probably arrested mentally and emotionally as well), or you’re one of those people that just staunchly exist.
Either way, there’s nothing wrong with any of it. I would just implore you to know and love yourself. I was at a point where I thought I needed to go back (BACK) to therapy. Actually, that will happen – it’s such a beautiful exchange that I feel the need to put a shameless mental health plug in there for you who suffer under the weight of the “crazy” stigma that says going to see someone about your thoughts and emotions is a bad thing. Tell you what a bad thing is…when your insides are changing and you can’t deal. So you self-medicate or stop the clock.
And that is NOT ok.
Well… It’s taking some time for me to get used to mid-30s Kenneth. And considering I’m not much of a people person anymore – you probably won’t get to know him. Sucks for you.
First …I’d like to thank Monica for recording this…so I can experience awesome times like this while I’m away. I love that my kids weekends are filled with THIS! Although all of the kids did a great job. I want to point out my little kings. Jojo went first…Joshy went third….THEN JoJo teamed up with his homeboy and did a poppin routine that killed it! – shout out to Johny Dupre – Tommy Chu and the Culture Shock family for keeping hip-hop/breakin/poppin alive in the hearts of kids…
Orders the first of many kennethology inspired shirts! –
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The astro-head represents the quote that i coined “someone told me the sky was the limit, i grabbed my telescope and walked away”
If I get 20 people to reserve the shirt – then the shirts will be printed.
live beyond the sky!
WHY IS THIS SO HARD?
Last week marked the 60th Anniversary of the landmark Brown vs. Board of Education ruling. As you can imagine there were a lot of reports, photo essays, op-ed pieces, etc., but one of them completely ruined my Saturday. I mean literally.
There was this >>
After hearing and/or reading these reports, I was angry – literally angry – because I’m struggling to understand why this is still something we haven’t figured out. We live in a country where everyone from community leaders to pastors to politicians (including our president) and corporate leaders have stated that getting an education is the great American equalizer. No matter your background or story – getting a good education and working hard is everyones opportunity to chart their own path in life. So why is it that we as a nation haven’t been able to figure to a way to provide the same educational opportunities to all students regardless of their background (socioeconomic, race, geography, etc.)? WHY IS THIS SO HARD?
“Today, education is perhaps the most important function of state and local governments.”
– Chief Justice Earl Warren (1954)
And why isn’t this an issue that has bi-partisan support or any at all? We clearly all agree that education is important – so why haven’t any of our politicians made it a priority? Is it because k-12 students are voiceless in our political process? Or is it because they’re intentionally making it difficult for lower income students to compete with their wealthier counterparts (since they have fewer resources yet are held to the same standards)?
I work in the Ed Reform space & even I don’t have the answers. I have no idea how to get to the answers, but this reaffirms for me that so much work still needs to be done. And no matter how frustrating it is at times – this work is too important. Ultimately its about how we level the playing field and set our kids up to succeed. And everyone needs to know / understand how critical it is for us to fix our public education system – not all of it, just the parts that are severly under-resourced.
And no – charter schools are not the answer.
so – just checked the stats for my blog – definitely motivating!
My blog has been read/viewed in 51 countries – thousands of readers!! – besides ‘Merica …the top viewing countries are..
Thanks for all of the support – post the link everywhere and continue to read!
it has been a couple of weeks since anything was posted on this thing here i call a blog – there are several reasons for that …none of which i will get into. the most important things is…I’m baaaaaaaaccckkkkkkkk – if you have any questions or anything you would want me to blog about – please don’t hesitate to contact – other than that please expect the usual variety blog posts, rants, poems and nonsensical spillage for you to feast your eyes on…
have a nice evening and thanks for visiting….